This is has been a challenging year in many ways (keeping in mind that I track years from Sept to May) and I have struggled to commit to the goals that I have set for myself. This is not meant to be an excuses post, but more of a reality check for myself and a means of accountability. As the school year comes to a close, I have an opportunity to refocus and put an emphasis on my fitness goals and truly renew my commitment to becoming #safit.
As I begin to refocus, I have realized what won’t work. A lot of #safit people are runners. And I know that a lot people say “I was never a runner, but I am now. You can be too.” But for what I believe is a deep mental block, I am not a runner and I don’t know that I will ever get past it. For all the positive encouragement and what not, please stop. Your fitness is not my fitness. It can’t be and for the record, it doesn’t have to be. If anything, I am a swimmer or a really bad dancer or a kick the soccer ball around the back yard person. And there are new things I want to try like yoga or Zumba. But please, let my fitness be my own. If it’s not mine, I am already setup for failure. Fitness has to be enjoyable or else why get up and do it everyday.
And so, May will be my reset point and I am going to stay focused on what is important. And I am going to remember why I started in the first place. My health. My ability to enjoy the things I want to enjoy. My self-esteem. And I will try new things and set attainable goals. And I will allow myself to fail, because failure is inevitable when starting a new journey.